2nd MRI

I’m more apprehensive this time around. Being recalled for a ‘closer look’ at my brain I think is the reason behind the tension in my jaw and neck.

Afternoon appointments always mean I’m playing the waiting game. Today however, I had to support my daughter at school, who was experiencing apprehension of her own, about receiving a vaccination.

The sun is out with its hat on, here in Scotland. One dare not miss the opportunity to sit in the garden, as it may be gone tomorrow, or even by afternoon. With a two hour window, where I can sit out with a book, I quell the anxious thoughts by remembering that I have time. Aware I’m avoiding, I enter into the conversation—“I’m aware how uncomfortable the feeling of heat on your skin is, as sweat forms and trickles…but you surely remember the soothing comfort the heat brings to your skin? So, how can you make the uncomfortable more manageable, allowing you to enjoy and appreciate the sunshine? Maybe sit 5 minutes at a time, go indoors to cool down, drink water, oh and put ice in it, take a towel out to dry your hands if they sweat 😥, headphones on to dull the noise distractions. 3,2,1…go.” 

I managed a few short bursts, but it felt tiring and awkward. Aware that I’m still waiting, even if not in full wait mode.